(3TV/CBS 5) − "The holiday has always been my favorite time of the year," says Angie Haskovec, despite the tragedy that changed her three years ago.
She and her husband adopted three kids, two boys and a girl, after doctors told them they would never be able to have biological children.
Life was going along great she says, and then Haskovec became pregnant.
"Noah was our surprise baby. He was our dream. I wanted him to be a part of our family. The moment you become pregnant those dreams just come into your mind," Haskovec says.
Angie's water broke at just 23 weeks along. Doctors were able to stop her labor for about a week. She started to get an infection and on June 13, 2015, Noah was born. He only survived 12 days.
"I remember the day before when we knew he had taken a turn. One of the nurses who is still a friend to this day, I looked at her and I said, 'Brandi how do I go on without him?'"
"She looked at me and she said, 'You get up every morning and you take care of those kids you have in your home waiting for you. They are gonna give you the strength to go on.' At the time, I remember thinking, OK. But it was that advice that really helped me," Angie says.
Dr. Yazhini Srivathsal, a psychiatrist a Banner Behavioral Health says talking can help.
"If you feel like this is something that will benefit you, and you think talking about it will help you, go for it. If you feel like it's gonna make you feel worse, now is not the time, then don't," says Srivathsal.
After Noah's death, Haskovec noticed some of her family members never mentioned Noah's name out of fear that bringing up the subject would make her sad.
"I think giving people permission is OK. If you feel like that is how you want to remember them, to talk about them," Haskovec says.
The Cuddle Cot was created to give the gift of time to families who have babies who are stillborn or have a life-limiting diagnosis and will soon die. Angie purchased one and gifted it to Banner Desert Hospital, where she delivered Noah.
She wants to help families who will go through exactly what she did. She has this advice for people going through a hard time this holiday season.
"Be compassionate, give yourself compassion. However, you need to grieve, that's OK," Haskovec says.