Giffords staffer Ron Barber talks about shooting incident

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TUCSON, Ariz. -- Giffords' staffer Ron Barber is now up and moving around after taking two bullets at the Safeway shooting. Saturday morning, for the first time, he talked about his recovery and the memories that still haunt him.

"I'm still probably overestimating what I can do," said Ron Barber.

He relies on a Walker and a wheel chair, but Ron Barber is savoring life, surrounded by tokens of tribute.

"Spending more time with this beautiful lady right here, and my grand kids and my daughters and my sons in law and my family," said Barber

Still the events of January 8 haunt him. The face of suspected shooter Jared Loughner, an image he can't shake.

"He came right past me as I was standing next to the congresswoman with some determination on his face, as I remember, so those are the images that play play over and over again," said Barber

Barber's perception of that day is taking new form, thanks to some stunning revelations.

First, the improvement he saw in his Thursday visit with Gabrielle Giffords.

"It was incredible the difference in how she looked, her interactions," said Barber.

Then there are reports suggesting Judge John Roll tried to shield Barber from the gunman.

"I do remember that we were standing next to each other, I felt some contact with someone or something," said Barber.

"I'm just devastated that his life may have been given to help me," said Barber.  "I'm grateful but it's hard to take."

Barber was hit twice, once in the face-- the bullet exiting his neck-- and once in his thigh.

"I picked up the phone and this very soft spoken woman said your husband's been shot," said Nancy Barber.

Barber and wife Nancy wrestle with their own recollections of the tragedy. They have many emotions, however the staffer says he has 'no feelings' for Jared Loughner.

"I don't think I want to talk to him," said Barber when asked what he would say to Loughner given the chance.

Barber says he's now focusing on his rehabilitation, and brainstorming ways to establish a fund for victims who have long-term needs.